I find my self sitting with a blank word document thinking, how I should continue this blog. I could go on like this is my personal diary; but even I would get bored. In the meeting with the resume person yesterday he used a lot of great analogies to describe the kind of cover letter I want to create. I think I can take those and use them towards this blog, sort of. My favorite example he used was when most people write cover letters, they are talking about them selves. This is why a resume is created. Use the cover letter to show interest in the company; like a first date. If you on a date with a really awesome person and they spend the entire date talking about them selves, would you see them again? I wouldn’t, even if they were hot; same with my blog. I read and re-read this thing because I want to represent myself how I see myself. I wrote something before I wrote this and I was yawning. It’s time to be an interesting person and I think I can only do that by experiencing life. I have become a shut-in, except for work which supports my anti-social life style. I think I am ready for more. So enough of all that jazz, how are you?
There is nothing like the story of another to bring you out of your own reality. Sometimes I feel utterly inspired by the stories in books and films. One of the most influential films for me in the last 6 months was Tron: Legacy. No rhyme or reason to explain why a futuristic and technological take on life would better my own life, except I think we all need a little fantasy in our lives. Maybe, a little excitement to show us that we are still alive with out putting our own lives at risk. Sometimes the inspiration is a character; how they achieve their goals or how their deal with their disappointment. I like to look at them as teaching aides. I get some of my greatest advice from watching other humans going through fictional situations similar to my own. What tools do they use that I am not using. What words do they choose that I fail to find in myself? It doesn’t help knowing that these characters are reading a script and the story is set in stone, but do you ever watch a movie over and over again hoping it will be different at least once? Bring the element of humanity into something so falsely representing it. And yet, as I said before, they are still my teaching aides for my life. False in the sense that things always seems to go as perfectly planned. Life is not like that. I could script out my entire existence and I promise there would be unexpected elements added all the time. I can’t predict what other people will do and say, also known as free will. Does this prove that fate is not set in stone; instead a series of choices all leading to different individual forks in the road to your own reality?
Wouldn't it be amazing to see the possibilities that lay behind each fork on the road to decision; or would it end up being like a movie. You know where it’s going, why watch it follow through… Luckily, I love watching the same movies over and over, except for the scary or bad ending movies. Life is probably closer to these types of movies. It would be better not to see where those forks could lead. You might end up seeing worse or even more worse. How do you choose between those two roads? Would there be an influx in suicide?
When I read the last 3 sentences, I see realism. I also see where somewhere could see a negative nelly. I guess we all choose what we want to see when we see different words chained together. I see truth where as someone else sees only darkness. Maybe I made my life this way, or maybe life has always been this way, I just took off my rose colored glasses. I can not lie though; I miss my rose colored glasses. I know that we are all born with a set in place. It’s our life experiences that change how we see the world, or remove these proverbial glasses. Is it better to be ignorant and happy or well informed and haunted? What I need are some travel ear plugs. Just pop those babies in every time I sense knowledge being exuded. Not all knowledge is beneficial.
T.H.I.N.K, I have heard this acronym many times through out my life; probably because I often forget it and find myself breaking all the rules.
- T – True, are you about to say something that is true or false?
- H – Helpful, do your words take or give back to the situation?
- I – Inspiration, do your words stimulate emotion?
- N – Necessary, did you need to add that last thought?
- K – Kind, do your words hurt people’s feelings?
It’s not easy to think before you talk. It’s even harder to follow all these rules all the time. Experience teaches us that the more we are true to these rules, the better our human interactions become. It’s a universal truth that we all just wanted to be treated the way we perceive our selves. Some of us are humble and see one human interacting with another human. Others have a life long ego boost and see all others bowing down to them; or vice versa. Either way, remember the above listed acronym before you speak and I bet your interaction will improve.
Although my above example sounds like it is full of judgment, it is not. Who am I to tell you your upbringing is incorrect. Many people are born into luxury and quickly come accustomed to a certain life style. One of my favorite phrases growing up was “It’s not fair!” My mom was always telling me how unfair life is and how I will learn to avoid pointing it out one day. I still think life is unfair, I just don’t say it anymore. Maybe it’s my American upbringing, but I think we should all be treated equally. History is supposed to teach our society the mistakes of the past, but I still the same hierarchy we fled from. I want to say that we are no longer born into our standing in life, and for many Americans, this is true. But there are so many more that are not as lucky. Hearing this, isn’t your first thought about how unfair this is?
Ok, I’m a bleeding heart, but isn’t it better to worry about something really important rather than something so shallow? I would love to not worry at all, except it just seems to be written into my DNA. I have met several people in my life who claim to been able to detach them selves from things like worry and insecurity. I am not surprised to find that most of these people are Libras. The only problem I have seen thus far is the level of responsibility. IF you don’t care, then does it matter? It always matters, no matter your level of interest. It’s the difference between doing a good job and a great job or being there and not. Therefore my curse of worrying is a gift. I know that I am the person I want to be when I see my self worried or concerned; or when I care about the quality of my work.
I said before that I hate being so knowledgeable and I gave you all the negative sides to it. But there is a positive side. You can bring your gained wisdom to lost souls. You can prevent future failures by learning from past failures. But most of all, you can be proud all your hard work. Like this blog for me. I thought I wanted a blog to publicly cite my emotions and vent my frustrations. Now I think it’s my way of openly talking to myself. I can’t hear my own voice, but I can read it. Thank you internet.
A wise man in my life told me that there are two aspects to every person; the body and the soul. (NO, I am not pushing my beliefs on you, just explaining a point through them.) I believe in reincarnation, which means I believe my soul has lived and will live many lives before and after the one. (A lot less scary than hell, trust me.) The knowledge my soul has gained is invaluable, but taping into that resource is like mining for gold. Sometimes you get lucky and hit the mother load. Other times, you spend most of your life never reaching more than a treasured nugget. (I love metaphors.) I won’t know which person I am until my death bed. Therefore I am going to keep digging and hoping one day I tap into that knowledge to better improve the quality of this life time. On that same thought, I also think that the reason some people don’t ever get the mother load is because they need to learn new lessons that haven’t learned yet. I get a feeling things used to more openly handed to me and I never really got far in my lifetimes. Why? Instinct tells me that I am facing some obstacles for the first time. I hope one of those is longevity in this lifetime.
I will leave my readers with this thought: What are your beliefs and have you revisited them recently? Sometimes we get so disconnected with the hustle and bustle of every day’s obligations. Sit down and think to your self why you are here. You might find a great weight lifted off your chest. Remember though, no matter your beliefs, you are in control of your life. Don’t give that power up to any one else, no matter their status.
